Psalm 139: 7-10 – “Where can I go from your Spirit? Where can I flee from your presence? If I go up to the heavens, you are there; if I make my bed in the depths, you are there. If I rise on the wings of the dawn, if I settle on the far side of the sea, even there your hand will guide me, your right hand will hold me fast.” (NIV)
I am sitting on a different porch today with a beautiful view of a gold course. God knows me so well. He knows I need time alone with Him. He also knows how much I love a good porch.
As I sit here, I am reminiscing about the times I have run away from so many things in my life. I spent so many of those years running away from the person who loves me the most, God.
I thought I was saved as a child but in reality I was just listening to what a preacher told me to do and it was not what I needed. What I needed was Jesus and not a false assurance of my salvation. I was doing Jesus things without Jesus even though I thought I was a believer in my heart.
It was several years before I realized that I was running away from God instead of walking with Him. Even during the time when I was running away from God the Holy Spirit had pricked my heart with the truth of God’s grace and love. I was constantly in situations where I would be asked about my relationship with Jesus. I had the head knowledge and would proudly replay, “I was baptized……or I was saved…”. Then I would take off running and change the subject before I could be asked another question.
I felt the tug and pull within my heart of the unanswered questions concerning my salvation. The running from God continued for too many years until I became weary and just stood still and stopped saying “But I was” to the Lord. When I stopped running He came closer to me. He had been waiting for me to come to Him.
When I gave my heart and life to Jesus I didn’t realize the real race was just beginning. I was no longer running from God but running to Him. My life is richer and fuller than I could ever have imagined.
Running away from God is not something I would suggest for anyone to do. My friend, just stop and listen when you have a burn in your heart – that is God’s still small voice trying to get your attention…..Listen to Him…Trust Him….Obey Him.
I had the opportunity earlier this year to do a video of my testimony and I want to share it with you now.