My name is Kelly Davis and yes I have control issues. If there were a help group for this I could definitely be the president of it! The only thing is this causes great anxiety for me. When I try to carry the weight of the world I fail and crumble under its immense pressure and yet I do this to myself each and every day.
Yet I know I was not made to do this, Jesus says “Come to Me all you who are weary and heavy laden and I will give you rest.” Matthew 11: 28. He alone is capable to carry the weight of the world. He alone has knowledge that no mere human could ever hope to have. He knows the beginning and the end because He is already there!!
I cannot play God in my life or the lives of those I love because I don’t know what He knows, I would only mess things up! It all comes down to Surrender!! Do I trust God enough with my problems and those of who I love? Do I truly believe with my whole heart and mind that He loves me and has all of our best interests at heart? When I listen to the enemy whispering in my ear “that wasn’t good or loving, God could have stopped that from happening” then I will take the reigns of control over from God once again in my life and think I could do it better.
But when I remind myself of His faithfulness in the past not only to me but to those I love and over and over in His Word I know I can trust Him now. Surrender is hard to do but so worth it, moment by moment, day by day releasing control to the One who knows us best and loves us most. Only then will we not crack and strain under a weight we were never meant to carry. Let us steal away to our Heavenly Father and release all our cares into His waiting arms. For He alone is able to handle all the weight ether world!!