Golda’s Faith Story
When I was young, I had a happy family until my father and mother separated because my father had another woman and he was gambling. I was devastated. I did not know what to do. No one comforted me. I hated my by father for what he did. For many years, I had bitterness in my heart and I could not forgive him. Several years later, he came back and my mother accepted him but I still did not forgive him.
In high school, I became attracted to not only boys but also to girls like me. I knew it was wrong to be a bisexual but I had a hard time overcoming it. I also prayed that I will be married to a good man, unlike my father who abandoned us. God blessed me with a good husband even though I was still struggling on defeating my bisexual self. 2009, I became irritable, impatient, easily angered, emotionally unstable and restless that I constantly hurt my husband. I was then diagnosed to have bipolar disorder. I was put in a homeware hospital to be treated. I was in denial and I could not accept my mental condition.
When I got out of the hospital, I felt humbled, insecure, down, and had low self-esteem. It was like I have done a huge mistake and everyone else knows about it. However, my husband did not reject, resent, hate nor blame me for what had happened. He accepted and loved me despite my condition. That is where I felt the unconditional love of God which Peter stated in 1 Peter 4:8 “…love covers a multitude of sins.” I felt God, our Father, reaching out to me and letting me know that he loves me so much despite all my flaws and sins. God took away all the hatred, shame, and guilt. He also made me overcome my bisexual self. He forgave. He gave me a new heart, a new being, and a new beginning. He enlightened, enriched, and empowered me. Now, I write devotionals and children’s stories inspired by the wisdom, grace, and love of the Lord.
Paul says in 1 Corinthians 2:16b, “But we have the mind of Christ.” I am forever grateful for what God has done in my life and for what he is about to do.