I Struggle

I am about to be very transparent because I know there is another woman right now fighting against the same struggle.

I battle anxiety…the kind that leaves you sweating, panicked, heart racing, can’t breath, walls closing in, out of control anxiety. I have struggled with this since High School and while some years an months are better than others the battle still reappears and the struggle to control it can wear me down.

Over the years God has shown me so much through this and taught me when triggers come, my faith must be firmly rooted, my trust must be secure. I have no doubt that I am not the only woman, mom, sister, wife, daughter, friend who struggles quietly, but sister you are not alone and please know that GOD HAS YOU.

The world seeks to confuse, destroy and create fear in us, in our children, in our homes, but we have to remember that fear is NOT from God. (2 Timothy 1: 7) We have to remind ourselves that there is a great light in darkness. Anxiety isn’t always wrapped up in fear and panic doesn’t always settle when we are afraid…One day a few weeks ago while simply folding laundry and sorting socks my heart began to race and I felt as though I could not breath. Maybe that makes me sound crazy to you but someone reading this right now knows the exact feeling I am describing.

The struggle, the battle is very real.

God has shown me triggers over the years that make my anxiety worse, through doctors, nutritionists and my chiropractor. I am learning how to avoid foods that trigger like consuming to much sugar…which can be depressing because I love it! Yet those are not the only triggers of me; being stressed, watching the news, being bombarded with information and opinions can send my anxiety to new heights. Those factors go back to what the world seeks to do to us. We have to step back and shut down, we have to walk away from the computers, television, and phones and allow God to settle our hearts and breathe peace into our bodies.

We have to redirect our hearts when anxiety comes. When I feel anxiety welling up I recall the verse “be anxious for nothing but in everything through prayer and supplication, give thanks.” (1 Thessalonians 5: 18) I begin to pray and thank God for anything and everything that I can think of….even if it is piles of dirty laundry. Thankfulness and worship beats out anxiety. I let God’s word pour over me with a long list of verses that I write out and read…It reminds me that my sweet Savior has it under control. Sweet sister this life is overwhelming but God has us, His love is stronger than any fear and anxiety the world will throw our way. I am praying for you…

{Redirect my heart to God and remember that He is in control}

*Read them, write them, pray them…let God speak to you through His word*

Let your faith be bigger than your fear.

1 Peter 5: 7

Proverbs 3: 5-6

Matthew 6: 27

Proverbs 12: 25

Romans 8: 18

Psalm 62: 8

Jeremiah 29: 11

Matthew 11: 28-29

Proverbs 31: 25

Deuteronomy 31: 6

Matthew 6: 34

Isaiah 35: 4

Psalm 94: 19

Philippians 4: 6-7

Psalm 118: 6

Isaiah 41: 10

Romans 12: 12

Psalm 46: 10

Habakkuk 3: 19

 

 

Michelle Rabon