Insecurity Revealed

My seven-year-old daughter peered up at me with her large, brown eyes. “Will you coach my basketball team, Mommy?”

I hesitated. My daughter, for the first time, wanted to play the sport I grew up living and breathing. As the daughter of a basketball coach, the love of the sport runs through my veins. My excitement bubbled at the possibility of my own daughter loving the game as much as I do. But still, I hesitated.

Despite my background in basketball, I wasn’t all that secure in the area of children. Could I coach six and seven year old girls? I definitely lacked ability in that department. Still, her pleading eyes bored into mine.

It would have been easy to say no. Someone else who would be better with kids could do it. But after praying about it, I silenced my inner protests, knowing what I needed to do.

Was it easy? Nope. But when I met the girls on Alyssa’s team and their families I knew — as imperfect as the season would be — I made the right decision. Many times I prayed and took my insecurities to God, my fears of failure, my certainty that I was not enough.

And each time, He assured me that He would be with me.

It may sound like I’m making something simple seem much bigger than it needs to be. But aren’t our insecurities like that? Maybe that’s why we have a hard time recognizing them in the first place. I think our everyday objections or hesitations — especially in an areas that make us uncomfortable — has more to do with our insecurity than anything else.

We can find some of the same insecurities in Moses. When God called him to go to Egypt and lead God’s people out of slavery, Moses was full of objections.

“Who am I?” “Who is sending me?”

But the interesting response we see from God has nothing to do with Moses at all. Instead, God turns the tables on Moses in His response:

“I will be with you.” “I am who I am.”

God’s response pointed back to His character, not Moses’s ability, will, or strength.

This whole rescuing Israel from slavery thing really had little to nothing to do with Moses at all. All God asked for was a willing heart — ready to trust God and watch Him work.

What are your specific objections and insecurities you have when it comes to joining the work of God? How might God be turning the tables on you, assuring you He is with you, even when He’s asking you to do something uncomfortable?

 

Jill McSheehy