View Post

When There Are No Words

        There was a time in my life when I was facing something that I couldn’t even pray, they were just no words. Here I was a pastor’s wife, a pastor’s daughter, and a mother and I could not even pray for my family. I was in one of the deepest darkest trenches of my life. I will never forget the feeling of being utterly alone facing the situation and having no clue of how to deal with it. I was up for hours during the night just reading aloud the word of God. I searched for …

View Post

Who Are You Talking To?

Job 38: 4 “Where were you when I laid the foundations of the earth? Tell Me, if you have understanding.” I got a big aha moment about 4:30 am one morning… I had a situation wake me up that I proceeded to pray and tell God how to fix it!!! Imagine how presumptuous that was!!!  But nevertheless He waited until I had carefully laid out my plan and then said something that I say to Drew all the time. “Remember,  Who you are talking to… in essence Who is the Parent?” “Who is the One who knows the most about …

View Post

Where Are You God?

        I blew it!! I was supposed to do something for God and just didn’t do it. Now I am miserable and God is silent. Have you ever been there?  David was. I love the way he puts his raw emotion into words, in Psalm 22: 1-2 he says “My God, my God! Why have you forsaken me? Why do you remain so distant? Why do you ignore my cries for help? Everyday I call to you, my God but you do not answer. Every night you hear my voice but I find no relief.” Sometimes when …

Fight with Prayer

I recently had a dream that my Daddy was still alive but still  had dementia. In this dream there was a man and other people desperately trying to get my Daddy into a particular sinful situation. In my dream I was fighting as hard and as much as I could possibly fight to stop them from their evil influence. And immediately before I woke up I thought about my sons. Once I woke up I felt the Lord say to me, as long and hard as you were fighting in your dream for your Daddy, you must continue to fight …

A Hardened Heart

Many years ago I stepped on a sliver of glass. After trying minimally to get it out I thought I would just let it work its way out. That was 5 years ago and it is still there. My heel made a big callous over it so that it could protect my foot from any further injury, however I still have pain there today. As I was in the shower this morning, I felt the nudge of the Lord saying, that is just like your heart. Anytime you have disappointment or unmet expectations, if not dealt with directly and removed …

View Post

The Broken Pot

I read this story about 18 years ago, I don’t know who wrote it but it immediately became a big part of my testimony as I could totally relate to it. Once upon a time there were 2 clay pots. These were no ordinary pots for they could talk. One was beautiful and exquisite and the other had several major cracks in it. The beautiful pot would taunt the broken pot every day. It said things like “I don’t know why they keep you around here. You are ugly and broken and can’t even do what a pot is supposed …

View Post

Running On Empty

          Have you ever felt like you were running on empty? Sometimes we get so caught up in life and all the demands for our attention that we find ourselves going through the motions and becoming depleted physically, emotionally and spiritually. Jesus tells us the cure for this: Matthew 11: 28-30 “Come to me, all who are weary and heavy-laden, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy …

View Post

What’s Your Focus?

          Do you ever wake up with drama?  Many times I do, it seems there is always something going on to focus on.  During one such time in my life when my circumstances looked bleak God spoke something profound into my heart. Philippians 4: 18 “At this moment I have all that I need even more than I need.” God reminded me to stay in “this moment” with Him.  At this moment, God has provided jobs for both my husband and me.  We all had breakfast and lunch and there is food in the fridge.  At …

View Post

Shopping Hungry

        Have you ever gone grocery shopping when you were hungry?  I have and did so again yesterday after a long tiring day.  As I pushed my cart through Walmart with a buggy chocked full of comfort food several college age young men passed by me.  In a glance at my buggy loaded with goodies one of the guys stopped and said “Can we go home with you?”  We both laughed and I then realized I had not really made smart choices filling my buggy with those good tasting comfort foods. Immediately my mind went to ‘shopping …

View Post

Seeking Comfort not the Comforter

There is a lesson I am learning, it is hard and painful.  I have been guilty of seeking comfort but not The Comforter!  Anytime there is pain I don’t want it!  I don’t want physical pain, emotional pain, or spiritual pain and yet I have experienced all three.  I put my trust in  medicine or a doctor very easily.  I have put my trust in godly friends and counsel but at the time I need it most I seem to make God my last resort.  He should be my go to, my first choice I know this! Pain is an …

View Post

Feeding Hungry

  I just wanted to share a lesson of mine with anyone who might enjoy or relate to it.  It sure was an eye opener for me.  Have you ever been really irritated about a situation and ended up taking it out (justly or not) on someone else?  Well that was my week last week.  I was in a mood and everything anyone did would set me on edge.  So as I am praying my morning prayers the Lord showed me Ephesians 6: 12  “For we do not wrestle against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the …

View Post

Returning to Egypt

  As I was praying about what my lesson for tonight would be, I read in Exodus about the children of Israel and their constant proclaiming to love and obey God then immediately going out of God’s will once things got tough.  How like me. The children of Israel had been in the wilderness a little while.  They had manna and quail, God had miraculously delivered them from Egyptian slavery, and the hands of Amalek and provided for their every need. About this time Moses was called up on the mountain to speak with God and get His instructions for …