Sweet Release

  Family curses are real. My family tree is a tangled up mess. Generations have battled depression, bitterness, shame, sickness and more. For years, when I thought of my paternal grandparents I couldn’t even bring myself to say a prayer. When I knew they needed prayer, I delegated. I asked my husband or my children to do the work because my heart couldn’t find the words. I’m not sure how, but I didn’t see this as unforgiveness. God knew my limitations though. He understood that years of rejection had left me speechless and hard. There had to be grace for …

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I Can Forgive but I Can’t Forget

  Do you feel held back in the area of forgiveness? Are you worried that forgiveness would somehow condone the past or excuse a serious wrong done to you? How can an abused wife forgive her husband or a child victim offer forgiveness to their molester? Even if a person’s forgiveness is deep and all the hard work of healing done, can it you ever forget? These are big questions that often leave us stuck on the forgiveness issue as we cling to our offenses, too scared to put them down. Psalm 103: 12 reads “as far as the east …

Waiting on An Apology

“I’m sorry” is a phrase that I have hungered for on more than one occasion. I want to know that the person who wronged me recognizes the damage done to my person (or to my heart) and repented for it. I want to see the person’s regret. I want their shame exposed and set in my hands so I can decide if they are worthy of my forgiveness. I want to be the judge. Is that too honest? I find that, when I have that mindset, the apology and any potential restoration are often delayed. I’ll find myself waiting on …

Serve Others

  Jonah ran from God because he did not feel others were deserving of God’s grace. God gives His grace to whom He pleases and asks us to serve others to show them this grace. He did not leave us without an example. In fact He gave us the greatest example, His own son. When Christ knelt at the feet of the disciples in the upper room, He did not grumble that no one else took the initiative. Instead, He willingly did the task of a servant even with crucifixion looming. He did not say look what I’ve done or am …

Grace Enough for Me…but Not for You

Have you heard the story of Jonah? He was a man called by God to do something he had no desire to do. So he ran. He hopped on a boat and went the opposite direction. But God didn’t let him get away. A great storm frightened the sailors so they cast lots to see which one of them had angered which god. When Jonah’s disobedience was discovered he was thrown overboard. The rain stopped. A big fish swallowed Jonah and he sat in its belly for three days. He wasn’t forgotten. He cried out to God and the fish …