As long as everything appears to be progressing as we like, it is easy to thank God and enjoy our blessings, and how many of us while enjoying God’s blessings ever bother to ask God, Why me? But when those same people begin to suffer trials and heartaches, they may be the first to ask in their minds, if not audibly for fear of appearing irreverent, why me, God.
The fact that you and I are God’s children, does not mean we’ll be exempt from trials and temptations. I never imagined the extent of Satan’s temptations until after accepting Jesus as the Savior of my life. I was a young adult and did not even know the moment I accepted Jesus as Savior, the Holy Spirit came to live in my heart. So when the battle for supremacy of my life began, my heart was the battleground for one of fiercest battles ever fought.
I wish I’d understood the meaning of that struggle between Spirit and flesh during that period in my life: for as Paul experienced and later wrote,
“For I do not understand my own actions. For I do not do what I want, but I do the very things I hate. Now if I do what I do not want, I agree with the law that it is good. So now it is no longer I who do it, but sin that dwells in me…Wretched man that I am! Who will deliver me from this body of death?” Romans 7: 15-17; 24.
Only God knows the struggle I had during those days; and to compound my problem I did not feel free to discuss it with anyone, not even my husband. Satan knew what a great man Paul would become and did all he could to hinder his work. And though one of the least of God’s servants I believe Satan did all he could to prolong and hinder the work God had planned for me.
Heavenly Father, thank You for the loving patience shown one of the weakest of Your children. Though trials and hardships continue, they are of a different kind and during the past years You have blessed my life so many times, I know that You’re in control of all current problems and ultimately will give me victory.