“God is within her; she will not fail.” Psalm 46:5
Do you ever have days where you just don’t feel good enough? No matter how far you may be on your walk with Christ, we all still have these kinds of days. As we get older, we start to look in the mirror and see the wrinkles, and we may start counting the gray hairs. We also may have gained a little weight because as we age, our metabolism slows down.
You feel like that is who you are now and it hurts.
I, myself, have lived a hard life. I didn’t have to. I had good parents and a good upbringing. I was an only child and my parents were much older so they didn’t always know “what to do with me”. I had severe social anxiety that was never treated. It was not for lack of trying. My mom took me to all kinds of doctors, but none of them knew what to do back then.
I wasn’t diagnosed until junior high and was given medication, but everything they prescribed made me sleepy or edgy or some other side effect I did not want to deal with. The anxiety was brutal, but after all, I had become accustomed to it. That went on till just before I began my freshman year of high school. That’s when I found my wonderful amazing cure all….that’s when I found alcohol.
And the rest is history. Although there were good years and bad years, most of my life I met l have felt some level of anxiety. So I spent lots of time wondering “why me?”. Maybe God just doesn’t love me like he loves other people. I must be really worthless. I even spent several years in a relationship where I was told I was worthless on a fairly regular basis. “Hmm must be true”, I thought.
I didn’t realize how truly loved I was until I was born again 10 years ago. When I really started talking to God and meditating and getting into scripture. When I truly began to understand the depths of his love for us.
You are of infinite worth in the eyes of the Lord. He knit you in your mother’s womb. He knows everything about you. And He loves you because you are His child.
Satan wants us to feel inferior, unworthy, miserable. He toys with our emotions every chance he gets, but the good news is that we can arm ourselves with the Word of God and be prepared, not only to fight the battle, but to win.
Prayer Father God, help us to always remember just how much you love us. We thank you so much for equipping us with the tools that we need to fight satan’s devices. We love you so much Lord, and we want to be better disciples for you. Thank you for your love. In Jesus name. Amen